Conversing with oneself....

I am unsure about me being an introvert. But people who are close to me, believe I m not an extrovert. But I along with those people mutually agree that it is very easy for me to express myself. If not verbally then through my facial expression.

While I m trying to figure out what exactly I want to write on convey through this blog, I am becoming aware of the fact that how easy it to write about others, and much more easier to comment on situations. But when you try to share something about your own identity, then its not an easy riddle to solve. More so because most of the time you are unsure, how much do you exactly want to share. What is that thresh hold limit beyond which you would stop.

Anyways, let's back to the point where I started deviating. I believe a person who is very expressive is also the one who is mostly in a fix. This is so because someone who is not used to talking about his feelings a lot, does not feel the need to do that very often. But people who want to share their feelings, are fighting back within themselves. Whom to talk to, how much to share, how to convey, what to not to say. Life is so much easier where there is no need to express, to talk, to share, when people can simply keep everything to themselves and move on. When they are not able to vent out their feelings they feel frustrated,and helpless. It is this very need that rears "expectations". The more you need people, the more you expect people to be around, to be understanding, to be supportive. And bang! you enter the vicious circle....the more your expect, more likely are your chances of getting hurt. The more you get hurt, the sadder you feel, and then..... "YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO" , whom you expect to be understanding and supportive .... what the hell... introverts are truly divine souls....much more free from hassles of expectations and expressions. 

I wonder why are extroverts perceived to be better than the introverts. Why can we find links on search engines that read....."How to Go From Introvert to Extrovert."

In fact, it is rightly being said, "For an introvert his environment is himself and can never be subject to startling or unforeseen change." 

I don't know if all those who would read this would actually see any meaning or purpose in this post....but what the hell, I am simply expressing the randomness of my mind :P 

Great Expectations !!!

Oh God! This boy never wants to study. All he wants in life is to play and eat and sleep. When will you do your homework beta, and Monday se unit test start hain, when will you study for them. Have you even decided what do you want to become in life. Who told you Commerce is good, you must take up Science. This is that phrase that we all have heard throughout our schooling life. Our parents always believed that we want to do everything in life but study. We were compared with our siblings and cousins and uncles and friends and dad's friend's son and the list goes on. It seemed as if every other human on this earth is hell more intelligent than us.

Then we grow up, we give entrance exams to numerous colleges for numerous courses, about each of which we are equally clueless. Who the hell can distinguish Computer from IT from Electronics from Electrical & Communications anyways. Whether or not we know anything about our subjects is immaterial. All that matters is that we got through a good college. And then all of a sudden we become the jewel of the family. All we hear from our relatives is, "yeh toh bachpan se he intelligent tha", "iska toh ho he jaana tha admission", and we are like "Oh really, did you not have an opposite opinion about me few months back" and worst of all, "beta ab chintu bhi 10th mein hai, we'll send him to you, you are going to counsel him regarding his career options, tell him which coaching classes to join, which center to go to, what is the best time to take classes, weekdays or weekend, which bus to take to, which foot to step out first while boarding the bus......... bla bla bla". This last one is the best, because at that time only thought that occurs to our mind is, "Dude, I am still unsure about my future, and my getting into a college was not planned, it was my luck that 90% of the students who are more or atleast equally qualified, worked equally hard simply could not make it during those 2 and a half hours." 

And then the anxious parents are discussing amongst themselves, "We do not pressurize our children.We let them go at their own pace".Oh yeah, sending your kids to 1000 unknown people for counseling, eating their brains, the moment they start watching TV, asking them not to go out to play and most irritatingly, "casually" telling them stories of all the cousins and cousin's cousin's friends who made it into "some" college. Is it NOT pressurizing ? Huh, I do not think so. This is the worst kind of mental torture. It is much better to directly ask the child to be more disciplined and work hard. Rather than 24*7 comparing him with anonymous, irrelevant, immaterial figures. 

Hey, I am not saying that this happens with each one of us, but I am sure we all have experienced such behaviors directly or indirectly at some point in time. There is no particular reason for me writing this, nor is there a definite moral of the story. But I do believe, we should let children decide things on their own. Be there for help, to guide, to safeguard, to befriend them, to warn them. But in no capacity try and restrict their line of thought by superimposing that of yours. Never push them into something, because if at all they be unsatisfied with their lives, they will have only you to be blamed. 

India in The Millenium Year

Step into the Millennium year

Open your senses; eyes and ears.

It's time to realize 

The dreams of Indians

Who had worked for Independence

And fought for millions

Who had lost their families and lost their lives

Who had worked day and night on the bed of knives.

Stop caste-system, stop deforestation,

Stop over-population, stop pollution!

It is time to show the world,

Tthat India is a power and Indians are back.

They have gained the the qualities,

Which they used to lack

It's time to get united and work for the nation.

It's time to stop worrying for selfish gains,

Which ruin our country's fame.

Education, health and food for every one

Should be our goals and love and peace

be in our souls.

Live and let live be our motto,

To serve the humanity in toto

So let my country awake.

This is my new millennium wish.

I wrote this more than a decade back. This isn't exactly what i wrote, I picked it up from my school magazine where they had edited few lines before publishing. Though I can not exactly remember the original lines, but still the edited version does not deviate a lot from the original. 

Check it out....

P.S. Before you comment, like or dislike it, please remember that it was written by a 12-13 year old kid. :)

Mujhe Pyaar Hai Tumse.........

A truly special song for me. Not many people have heard it though. It used to be aired on television ages back. It is a rarity to hear it late at night on All India Radio these days. But  it cheers me up whenever I think of it. The singer Pankaj Sarawgi, though not really heard of by many, has done a great job. 

If for nothing else, you can watch the video for the sheer innocence of the whole situation, don't forget to check out a very young Zyed Khan as well.......

Orbook.com

"__ likes this","X and 4 other friends commented on Y's post". These are the most common sentences one encounters in today's life. Life's running too fast, we seriously do not have the kind of time to call our friends or go out in the evening for a walk with a friend who lives next door. But there is always time for cropping, editing, retouching and posting numerous pictures, adding videos, using apps, updating status on our very own fb/orkut/twitter accounts.
It seems we are outperforming life in the race against time. These so called "social networking sites" in a way forbid us to socialize privately. Everything that we wanna say to one person is visible to innumerous others. Please do not bring this thought to your mind that I am someone who's a memeber of "I hate fb/orkut" community. For a matter of fact I have an account at practically every such site you can think of. But the more I use them, the more I feel, my life is revolving around logging on to these sites, admiring pics of people, checking the latest posts and shutting the computer down.

I know that this way atleast we are getting connected to people whom we had completely lost track of, but then to think of it, a person with more than a 100 friends on these sites, have, at so many times, nobody to call up when he feels low or joyous.
At best you update your status, and people either "like' it or "leave a comment" and in most cases, leave unnoticed under the pile of hundred other posts from hundred other "friends".
I certainly do not wish to mean that we should quit being a member of such network, i would rather encourage the contrary. All I mean to say that there are things more important in life, sit with your parents, go out for an evening walk, join a hobby class, play with a kid at home, take your mom out for shopping, call up friends, just don't adhere to a superficial network. If you really want to socialize, then do it personally.... don't let the electronic wires take the fun out of it.

A New Beginning!

This title-cum-phrase is ideally suited to become the solution to practically every problem in life. Many of you might not agree, but I do believe that more often than not things do improve if we start them afresh.
It is not necessary that we actually go erase everything that has been done so far, and then set out all over again, but at least, hypothetically, we sure can, for some moments go back in time and think how would we like it the situation to be, or if were an external party, then what would have been our reaction to the situation at hand.
We have to let our mind, our thoughts and explanations take a U-turn, go back to the starting point and then start them in 1st gear.
I know I am no preacher, not even qualified to be one. Neither am I writing a series like "ten simple ways to get rid of your problems........". It was just that I had tried my hand at blogging earlier, posted a couple of introductory notes, and then simply quit. With all my efforts I tried making use of the loads of free time I currently have by blogging again, but surprisingly, someone like me who always has something or the other to speak about could not write a single word. It is then, that it struck me to create a new blog.... begin it all over again.
I am feeling much better now, seriously at times it really feels fresh to start things again, only to improve them a lot more.
Try it out, as i mentioned, at least, hypothetically do, I m sure it would be a harmless attempt to prettify situations and solutions.....